A Strange Turn of Events

We had an MRI for my son last week and just got the results.  The neurologist noticed some old brain damage on the left side of my son's brain.  He was quick to state that this was old and likely unrelated to what we are seeing now but that it was unexpected.  He said it explained why my son is left handed and maybe (emphasis on maybe) why he has a low IQ.  He said he needs to think about it some more and will get the entire image CD to review it. Then he wants to see us and my son and maybe test and see if my son ever had a stroke (!) and has any issues obviously related to this damage (motor issues, specifically).  

 

As far as medications go, my son continues to take the 45mg of Remeron at night and 600 mg of Neurontin 3 times a day.  The only thing that seems to be true is that he sleeps at night (although certain major events may disturb that sleep - e.g. going back to school, arrival of my Mother).  Aside from that he continues to perseverate and rarely engage in conversation.  We have had a few violent outbursts (about 3 or 4) over the past few weeks.  In my mind, we have seen no benefit from this regimen of medications - save for the sleeping at night (granted, a great thing - but not the home run we would like to see)

 

So...brain damage..no solution.  Anxiety...no solution.  At best we have some fodder for medical papers but still no sign of my son.

Another Specialist Speaks

The holiday season provided us with a gift.  Owing to a cancellation, our February appointment scheduled back in August with yet another world-renowned expert was moved up to yesterday (Thursday).

Our son was in tip-top form: agitated, upset, violent, non-communicative - a full stage show complete with scratching, pinching and screaming. After he settled down a little, he did say to me "I want to go home". My wife had to take him home after about 20 minutes. My son took no comfort in being at the clinic and apparently was quite upset about the situation (maybe that specific one or his own or both).  I sat with the Doctor and gave him the background, answered his questions and described the situation.

The doctor said that my son's situation was unusual but not unheard of. He shared the following:

1. My son's brain may be in a state of flux right now. This could be somewhat natural changes or perhaps heralding a permanent regression of his capabilities
2. The medications that have specific and well-known effects on "normal" brains have different effects on "spectrum" brains and it is good to use low dosages and slowly raise them. He liked our approach.
3. If my son's brain is undergoing some sort of change then we are treating it using medications when it is in a state of flux and the effect of medications becomes even more unpredictable. If we think my son's condition has stabilized (at awful) then it might be valuable to go back and try the anti-psychotics again - low and slow. He said that in his experience, anti-psychotics of one sort or another are the ultimate solution.
4. He thinks that Neurontin is OK because it is well tolerated but noted that it is mild in it effectiveness. He thinks Depakote might be a better mood stabilizer even though it requires blood monitoring.
5. He thinks higher doses of Klonapin might be helpful (3,4 or 5mg).
6. He thinks the MRI is a good idea if only to rule things out.
7. He thinks genetic testing might be beneficial if only to identify chromosomal or genetic anomalies that might be able to point to a specific treatment regime.

Like some of the others, he was not wholly convinced that the death obsession was the root cause and may have only been the straw that broke the camel's back - meaning this was inevitable anything could have triggered it.

He was nice and thoughtful and did his best not to shrug his shoulders and say "I dunno".  He said he would be willing to confer with our psychiatrist and even see my son on an ongoing basis or every now and then if we thought it would be helpful.

Steady - That's About It

We've been at 45mg of Remeron and 300mg of Neurontin twice a day and things are pretty much the same.  A few words every few days.  Little else.  Still anxious and agitated.  No real conversation or communication.  Still perseverating.

I'm thinking about 2 things. 

1. Going back to check if very low doses of things we have already tried can help.  Specifically Prozac, Seroquel, Effexor and Geodon saw short periods of "awakening" as we either tailed off or built up.
2. Schedule an MRI.  I mean why not?  If there are structural problems in his brain there's nothing we'll be able to do but, I suppose, at least we'll know.

Meeting with a Specialist

My son was in a state (as he has been for the past several days) in which he paced and perseverated endlessly.  The perfect to meet up with a specialist. Full on detached mode, as it were.  At the appointment, attempts were made to converse with my son but with no success.  So we spoke about the situation and I shared my observations.  He pondered my son and was puzzled.  He has seen this sort of behavior before - it's just that he never has seen it develop suddenly. Rather, kids who behave like this have always behaved like this.  The most significant takeaway was that my son was in a state of high anxiety and that was, in his mind, the prevailing and overarching issue.  He said the approach taken thus far was reasonable and what he would have suggested but now is the time to "fish in a different pond" - pharmacologically.  He thinks the SNRI medication is a good place to be although he seemed to prefer Cymbalta to Effexor and was bemused at the pharmacist's reaction to it. 

Although he said he needs to think about the sequence and priority, he suggested the following:

1. Increasing Effexor to at least 150mg/day before abandoning it

2. Trying Remeron